• JASMINE CHUA{♥}

♥ Thursday, 3 December 2009

working in the morning is never a good idea when you go home late ytd night
so so sleepy now..
haha
today first lesson starts at 10am
so poor me, got to reach before 930am
and work all the way till 1030pm
jasmine w become a walking corpse tonight
there's nothing for me to do now
so i'm slacking over here
hahaha
ytd after work went to meet my girls
so nice of gs to accompany me to go alanna's house there
thanks alot girl
and thanks alanna for helping me w the card
simply love my girls to bits

quarrel w boyfriend in the morning is never a healthy choice
oh well,
i guess i w just let things be
accused me for all you want!
there's nothing i'm afraid of
i'm speaking the facts
feel it w your heart instead of believing what your mind thinks
you made me feel like going back to single life
perhaps i wouldn't feel so pressurize this way
whatever.
i'm not going to let this affect my mood like i always do
it just harm my body for getting so worked up and pissed
goodbye.

don't let me go@ 18:50

♥ Wednesday, 2 December 2009

since i'm free now

shall drop by here for some updates

if not my blog seems so dull

went to register for my private school already

starting in Jan

cant wait lor..

anticipating la

hahaha

nothing much happen recently

i love my life so much now

everything seems so perfect for me

job kind of tied me down

not much social life, im enjoying

but at least i still have alittle time for my dearest.

my job is good w all my nice boss and good colleagues

they just cheers my day up

so satisfied w everything i have now

just hope things wouldn't change

haha

next week baby jiu POP

kind of guilty

as i can't attend

i'm sorry, i know you wouldn't hold it against me

sometimes when i hear baby say that others gf will go fetch their bf makes me rather sad

i know you are upset why i can't go over but there's nothing i could do about it

hope you understand

i w try my v best to spend more time w you during your 2 weeks blocked leave ok?

promise..

k la

shall end here

update another time when im free.

don't let me go@ 07:46

♥ Wednesday, 18 November 2009

it's been sometimes since i last came to my blog

shall do some update

things wasn't going v well for baby and me

but i guess it will worked up soon

i'm so sick of explaining myself again and again

it's just the matter of trust

i hope you could trust me and this relationship

seriously, i don't need a boyfriend that suspects and questions me whole day long

i'm just a human being

no matter how high is my tolerance level or how much i can compromise

i will get sick of it one day

you know, baby?

i have to work,

and my work needs me to remember alot of stuffs

there might be something that i will forget to do

perhaps i saw the msg when im busy and i jolly well just cancel it away

thinking that i will reply later but when i'm done w my stuffs

it just slipped off my mind

i hope you are understanding enough

although i forgotten somethings

but i didn't forget our monthly anniversary

i still text you

hope all this will clear your doubt when you see this post

i'm already tired of explaining

and ya,

i finally signed the form and i quit school

in a job that my boss is good and everything is so perfect for me

i'm so happy that i left that place

now waiting for my private school to start in Jan

really didn't regret my decision

i'm v happy now

except for my relationship

hopefully it will turn out better soon

shall end here first

don't let me go@ 20:16

♥ Wednesday, 4 November 2009

baby is booking out later

so happy and excited

anticipating to meet my botak!

im going over to pasir ris to fetch him

don't let me go@ 22:34

♥ Sunday, 25 October 2009

after much consideration for the past few weeks

i have come to a decision

i'm going to quit attachment and school

and take up private instead

i totally can't stand that bloody old woman in the company

i see no point carry on when i already don't have the heart in there

although i knew that my decision will disappoint alot of people

i can only say i'm sorry and thanks for all the advices and comfort you all gave me

i believe i will live better off this way

so sorry my baby,

i can't wait till you booked out then make decision

since i won't be taking any pay,

i don't want to work extra days for them and help them to earn sales

no point right?

i know you will understand me

i'm missing you.

don't let me go@ 17:49

♥ Saturday, 24 October 2009

it's been sometime since i last touched my blog again

so some updates:

17/10/2009

met baby and initially we intend to hit the cathay for some movies

on our way there,

i thought of asking cheryl&cheng to go Pulau Ubin for some cycling on 18/10/2009

but then they decided to go today

lol

met them at the train but then we think it was too late to go there

scare no more ferry

so we went to pasir ris instead

did some cycling and settle our dinner at EHub

home aftermath

18/10/2009

totally forgotten

19/10/2009

work

rush back to jurong

had dinner w baby & his family

accompany baby to buy his stuffs for NS

and home after that

20/10/2009

work

met dear at bugis for dinner after work

and went orchard for some shopping

home

21/10/2009

didnt attend work as requested by my dearest

went to his house early in the morning

and guess what?

that fellow not at home

make me bomb everyone call to wake him up

pissed

after that sleep at his house

and met ck at jurong polyclinic

went to see doctor

and requested to do xray for further medical review

then went IMM w them for lunch

and JP to meet up w the rest

baby went for his haircut

and he became botak!

stupid ck go video somemore

damn funny

then went to slack for awhile

and all went home

that moment when baby kiss and hug me before he go

makes me feel like crying

i can't bear to let go of my arms

sobs

22/10/2009

baby went in NS

unfortunately i can't accompany him

due to my work

thinking back,

i hate myself so much

and i hate the fucking company too

i know baby is upset that i can't go too

hais

so sorry

work was terrible for me

i burst into tears again

i just don't understand why is there such nasty customers in Singapore

damn it

maybe that day was just not for me

before i went to work that day,

i already cried once

i don't know exactly what happen to me

maybe im too insecure?

i don't know

and facing a long list of nasty customers makes me weep

i hate the useless me

i hate myself for being such a letdown

i hate myself for always letting hubby worry for me

from the very first day of work,

he's my motivation to keep me going on

everyday when i felt like giving up,

he kept repeating telling me to endure and he's there for me

and i will get to see him when i knocked off

but that day i know it v well,

i can't see him after i knocked off

i have to go home all by myself

i hate the feeling of not having hubby by my side

then i realised how reliant i am

when Zaki came,

he asked me why i looked so sad?

i felt like crying again but i hold back

he then told everyone of us

if we were to give up now,

why do we have to endure for the past 1 yr plus?

why didn't we quit school from the v 1st semester?

what do we really want from it?

all the question he asked kept repeatedly appearing in my mind

his words are power

he knocked alot of sense into my mind

he teaches me alot of stuffs

i don't want to be a tortoise

i don't want to hide away when i faces trouble

so hubby, i will stay strong till the day when you booked out

you promised to give me a big hug when you see me

i'm waiting for it

baby, by the time you see all this

i want to tell you,

you don't have to worry for me

because i will be a strong girl

nothing can beat me down

ok?

i'm missing you hell lots

after work that day,

went to meet gs and her friends

had dinner at causeway

and home after that

23/10/2009

2nd day without hubby

went to work

i'm strong that day

cuz i have been telling myself hubby will call me later

had dinner at home

waited for hubby's call

after hanging up w him

went to sleep

24/10/2009

3rd day without hubby

work

after work i felt sad

hearing everyone meeting their bf makes me down

i'm all alone again

went westmall for lunch

and home aftermath

bath and fall asleep

wake up had dinner and talked to hubby on the phone

now here posting

and im going off to bed soon

baby, im so missing you

sobs

don't let me go@ 09:25

♥ Friday, 16 October 2009

it's the 17 of oct

HAPPY 2 YEARS ANNIVERSARY
to ♥baby and me

time really flies fast,

when we don't even realised that we've come so far

these 24 months with you was a pleasure
there's time when we quarrelled and give attitude
there's time when we shouted&screamed at each other
there's time when we walked seperate ways
& you didnt try to

let go even though i did.
im sorry i've hurt you
im sorry im not perfect
im sorry that im selfish
im sorry that im hard to handle
im sorry that im difficult to be satisfied
im sorry for the times that i give u pressure
im sorry for being a failure girlfriend
im sorry for not understanding you

im sorry for the time that i've neglected you
im sorry that i can't always be there
im sorry for all the tears that you've shed
im sorry for being unreasonable at times
im sorry that im not a perfect girlfriendi got to thank god for giving me such a ♥boyfriend that will always be there to see me through
one who tolerate my unreasonable acts
& taking in all my sarcasm words when we quarrelled

one who will dote on me and spare all his time with me despite neglecting his friends
one who will lend me a listening ear and a shoulder to lean on whenever im down
one who will dry my tears when i cry
one who will catch me whenever i fall
♥baby,
there are too many too many words to describe our love
you r the reason that we've come so far
you always sacrifice yourself to save this relationship
you always compromise to my wants
all the bits&pieces things that you did for me
it's greatly appreciated
thks ♥love

don't you worry that i will change heart when you go in NS

have faith in me and this relationship

i love you and this is the fact that wouldn't change

i hope this relationship would last as long as it will
i will keep holding on and never give up
til the day when we say "i do"
im awaiting for this day to come
when i get to walk down the aisle with you
when we get to start our own family
when we get to have little baby
it's a long term promise, ♥baby

don't let me go@ 09:12